Saturday, November 29, 2008
It is 3:35 in the morning and I suppose I should go to bed. My mind is scattered and focused. I am reminded of those in my life who have so many interests. Involved so outside of themselves, involved in politics, local and national, those who have so much to say, so much to offer. Perhaps this silly little blog is not using cyberspace to the best of its potential. I have been very inward of late. I admit that.
These friends of mine, good friends, who mean much to me, perhaps I will learn and listen and they will show me the broader pictures, pictures I could focus on, in a grander scale.
These friends of mine, good friends, who mean much to me, perhaps I will learn and listen and they will show me the broader pictures, pictures I could focus on, in a grander scale.
Brother Two, reliable, fun, diligent, versatile. Would do anything for you. He heard something thru the grapevine, which he should have heard from me. But I had not seen him yet. It's only two weeks's old and it's not the kind of thing you want to call and tell someone. He was gracious as could be. But I feel badly, that's not the way I intended on him hearing.
Tonight I was 8th out of 19. Not my best showing but not bad considering. What always seems to throw me is if I am the one chosen to change tables due to downsizing. I theorize this is due to then needing to learn the new tables nuances and how each player plays and learning it quickly, as everyone else at the table has a leg up as they've been sitting there awhile. But that's the game and I must learn a work around, as I am usually the lucky one who has to move.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Today was Thanksgiving. I cooked my first turkey dinner today, and I have to admit I was a bit nervous about it. I tried a butter compound and it worked wonderfully. I think everything turned out very well.
There were a few difficult internal moments, for me, personally. I'm not going to lie. The worst was setting the table and only seeing three plates on the table. It kind of caught me off guard how something that small and silly, can so quickly and concisely bring into focus, all that seems surreal in your life.
But the moment passed and I moved on to other necessary duties. Although, admittedly, throughout the day, I have thought much of W, wondering what he was doing and hoping he is having a nice holiday.
Happy Thanksgiving to everyone. I am thankful for my children, the rest of my family and friends, for my life and my experiences which have brought me to who I am and what I am.
There were a few difficult internal moments, for me, personally. I'm not going to lie. The worst was setting the table and only seeing three plates on the table. It kind of caught me off guard how something that small and silly, can so quickly and concisely bring into focus, all that seems surreal in your life.
But the moment passed and I moved on to other necessary duties. Although, admittedly, throughout the day, I have thought much of W, wondering what he was doing and hoping he is having a nice holiday.
Happy Thanksgiving to everyone. I am thankful for my children, the rest of my family and friends, for my life and my experiences which have brought me to who I am and what I am.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Sometimes you have to just say it
Whatever is eating you up inside
And where you end up is
Well, where you end up
Chances take us out on a ledge
Will we stay or fall, keep the bet or hedge
Put it all on the line
Had to pay the price
That's okay, because I never expected
And it's certain I never deserved
To be loved in the way
I had hoped from you
As I walk away, I have to be sure to say
Never has one touched me like you do
Wish I could have shown you true
All I would have done for you
I don't believe in love at first sight,
But I believe we can know a destiny
When it appears in front of us
So clear and sure, there you were
I would have been able to show you much
Payback would need only your touch
And then I would find sure
Your heart oh, so pure
COPYRIGHT OCTOBER 2007
Whatever is eating you up inside
And where you end up is
Well, where you end up
Chances take us out on a ledge
Will we stay or fall, keep the bet or hedge
Put it all on the line
Had to pay the price
That's okay, because I never expected
And it's certain I never deserved
To be loved in the way
I had hoped from you
As I walk away, I have to be sure to say
Never has one touched me like you do
Wish I could have shown you true
All I would have done for you
I don't believe in love at first sight,
But I believe we can know a destiny
When it appears in front of us
So clear and sure, there you were
I would have been able to show you much
Payback would need only your touch
And then I would find sure
Your heart oh, so pure
COPYRIGHT OCTOBER 2007
Listening to Dave
While I try to make it through the day
And he's singing, singing his song
About how he's diggin' his ditch
And it makes me think of you
Makes me think of the kids
And it brings me here
Standing in a new place
With a new way of looking
Trying to find a new pair or glasses
So that I can figure out how to see
Once in awhile, a ray of light
It starts to shine through
and I can see, it's going to come
And it's all going to be all right
Though that ray lasts just a few
Brief seconds, I know it's there
And I just have to get there now
Closer and closer, each small step
And each day, it'll last a bit longer
And each day, each week,
We are going to be stronger
The chrysalis will disappear
Listening to Dave
While I try to make it through the day
And he's singing, singing his song
About how he's diggin' his ditch
And it makes me think of you
Makes me think of the kids
And it brings me here
COPYRIGHT NOVEMBER 2008
While I try to make it through the day
And he's singing, singing his song
About how he's diggin' his ditch
And it makes me think of you
Makes me think of the kids
And it brings me here
Standing in a new place
With a new way of looking
Trying to find a new pair or glasses
So that I can figure out how to see
Once in awhile, a ray of light
It starts to shine through
and I can see, it's going to come
And it's all going to be all right
Though that ray lasts just a few
Brief seconds, I know it's there
And I just have to get there now
Closer and closer, each small step
And each day, it'll last a bit longer
And each day, each week,
We are going to be stronger
The chrysalis will disappear
Listening to Dave
While I try to make it through the day
And he's singing, singing his song
About how he's diggin' his ditch
And it makes me think of you
Makes me think of the kids
And it brings me here
COPYRIGHT NOVEMBER 2008
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Please don't toy with this one
I don't think you see
What seems to clear to me
My truth makes him cry at night
Until the morning light
As he wrestles with what he knows
But I know, know him well enough to know,
He won't be able, he won't be able to let this go
And he is the last one I would ever turn
And yet, ironic, his heart is the one that burns
Please don't toy with this one,
I don't think you see
What seems so clear to me
My love and my heart's desire
Thought I was a diversion
To keep the long cold winters nights warm and close
And he knows, knows me well enough to know,
I won't be able, I won't be able to let him go
And he is the first one, I want to love
And yet, ironic, my heart is the one that yearns
Please don't toy with this one,
I don't think you see
What seems so clear to me
So don't call me your only one
Professing confessions and
I'm not the undying love you think me to be
Because I know, you don't know me well enough
To see I'm able, take love and bring it down from high
And he is the one, the only one, I want
And how ironic, he said he has to go,
Please don't toy with this one,
I don't think you see
What seems so clear to me
COPYRIGHT DECEMBER 2007
I don't think you see
What seems to clear to me
My truth makes him cry at night
Until the morning light
As he wrestles with what he knows
But I know, know him well enough to know,
He won't be able, he won't be able to let this go
And he is the last one I would ever turn
And yet, ironic, his heart is the one that burns
Please don't toy with this one,
I don't think you see
What seems so clear to me
My love and my heart's desire
Thought I was a diversion
To keep the long cold winters nights warm and close
And he knows, knows me well enough to know,
I won't be able, I won't be able to let him go
And he is the first one, I want to love
And yet, ironic, my heart is the one that yearns
Please don't toy with this one,
I don't think you see
What seems so clear to me
So don't call me your only one
Professing confessions and
I'm not the undying love you think me to be
Because I know, you don't know me well enough
To see I'm able, take love and bring it down from high
And he is the one, the only one, I want
And how ironic, he said he has to go,
Please don't toy with this one,
I don't think you see
What seems so clear to me
COPYRIGHT DECEMBER 2007
Monday, November 24, 2008
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Saturday, November 22, 2008
RE:
My little ladies are caroling out in the cold. I listened for a bit but will wait until they're inside, closer to Xmas, to hear more. Brrrr
One of those days today
Start to wonder if I'm honey
Such a whirl wind
Guess it's kind of funny
But I can't seem to hear
With all the buzz
The bees dancing so pretty
But each time I turn around
It's only you I want to see
Dustin-lite, you might say
He stands so sure, sipping his wine
But he doesn't stand with your brilliance
Nor carry himself with your shine
One of those days today
Start to wonder if I'm honey
Such a whirl wind
Guess it's kind of funny
But I can't seem to hear
With all the buzz
The bees dancing so pretty
But each time I turn around
It's only you I want to see
Next, he's so unsure, quiet
Gentle with warm but weak brown eyes
But they don't heal me or bring me life
Like your dark deep eyes, open night skies
One of those days today
Start to wonder if I'm honey
Such a whirl wind
Guess it's kind of funny
But I can't seem to hear
With all the buzz
The bees dancing so pretty
But each time I turn around
It's only you I want to see
What have you done to me?
He smiles, my friend ever
Somewhere it changed, now he seeks more
I hear the words, but hear your soft voice
Call my name, it pulls my insides, from my core
Come in late, slight stupor
He won't stir, out of sight and mind
And heart, so I hurt for your hands and touch
This soul needs some tender touch, the touch of your kind
One of those days today
Start to wonder if I'm honey
Such a whirl wind
Guess it's kind of funny
But I can't seem to hear
With all the buzz
The bees dancing so pretty
But each time I turn around
It's only you I want to see
What have you done to me?
Can't get you out of mind.
Buzz away little bees
Start to wonder if I'm honey
Such a whirl wind
Guess it's kind of funny
But I can't seem to hear
With all the buzz
The bees dancing so pretty
But each time I turn around
It's only you I want to see
Dustin-lite, you might say
He stands so sure, sipping his wine
But he doesn't stand with your brilliance
Nor carry himself with your shine
One of those days today
Start to wonder if I'm honey
Such a whirl wind
Guess it's kind of funny
But I can't seem to hear
With all the buzz
The bees dancing so pretty
But each time I turn around
It's only you I want to see
Next, he's so unsure, quiet
Gentle with warm but weak brown eyes
But they don't heal me or bring me life
Like your dark deep eyes, open night skies
One of those days today
Start to wonder if I'm honey
Such a whirl wind
Guess it's kind of funny
But I can't seem to hear
With all the buzz
The bees dancing so pretty
But each time I turn around
It's only you I want to see
What have you done to me?
He smiles, my friend ever
Somewhere it changed, now he seeks more
I hear the words, but hear your soft voice
Call my name, it pulls my insides, from my core
Come in late, slight stupor
He won't stir, out of sight and mind
And heart, so I hurt for your hands and touch
This soul needs some tender touch, the touch of your kind
One of those days today
Start to wonder if I'm honey
Such a whirl wind
Guess it's kind of funny
But I can't seem to hear
With all the buzz
The bees dancing so pretty
But each time I turn around
It's only you I want to see
What have you done to me?
Can't get you out of mind.
Buzz away little bees
You don't deserve this
Lord knows wish there was more to give
Never wanted to break bliss
But this is no way to live
You and I
We grew up together
In so many ways
I am what you are
But still, it seems so far
Will fate forgive this
The road to no where
Will I meet you again
Where hurt never appears
In those blue, blue eyes
Forgive me, friend
Time never smiled down
When we looked up to heaven
Where were the stars for us
Baby, it's always been so hard
You deserve more than I have
Can't stand with you living so sad
Always thought I tried so hard
But it was never enough - never
COPYRIGHT OCTOBER 2007
Lord knows wish there was more to give
Never wanted to break bliss
But this is no way to live
You and I
We grew up together
In so many ways
I am what you are
But still, it seems so far
Will fate forgive this
The road to no where
Will I meet you again
Where hurt never appears
In those blue, blue eyes
Forgive me, friend
Time never smiled down
When we looked up to heaven
Where were the stars for us
Baby, it's always been so hard
You deserve more than I have
Can't stand with you living so sad
Always thought I tried so hard
But it was never enough - never
COPYRIGHT OCTOBER 2007
I'm so empty,
The next strong breeze
Might just pick me up
And away
I will drift
Into the sky so blue
Would anyone see me
See me float away
Would anyone care
Would you, would you?
And all that's left
The only trace of me
Carry no more words
No more looks across
Looks into those eyes
And no more breath
All that is left is one
One tear for that man
Who didn't see, cries
Call me back again
I took those chances
I did it
I know I did
I would do it again
Call me back
Again and again
Drifting without you
Bring me back, back again
COPYRIGHT DECEMBER 2007
The next strong breeze
Might just pick me up
And away
I will drift
Into the sky so blue
Would anyone see me
See me float away
Would anyone care
Would you, would you?
And all that's left
The only trace of me
Carry no more words
No more looks across
Looks into those eyes
And no more breath
All that is left is one
One tear for that man
Who didn't see, cries
Call me back again
I took those chances
I did it
I know I did
I would do it again
Call me back
Again and again
Drifting without you
Bring me back, back again
COPYRIGHT DECEMBER 2007
Friday, November 21, 2008
Well, it is the final weekend for Godspell. It's funny, because I have done this show twice and both times I was at a threshold in my life. Is it me, or the show? Who knows? This time around, well, I'm a lot older, a lot wiser. I've learned to allow myself to enjoy the experience more and I've allowed more of it to come from my heart.
And although this time around, I'm older and wiser, the contradiction is to say that I have just as many questions, and perhaps more, than I had back then. Perhaps that's what maturity truly is: realizing that you really don't know a damn thing. Perhaps, it's realizing that the answers aren't as important as the journey and the growth required to ask them in the first place.
I don't know. I feel the same inside, in some respects. I still am unsure of myself, lonely at times, wondering what tomorrow might bring. That's funny isn't it? Although there is a different side to me that wasn't there before. I think I am more comfortable with me. I accept that I am not one of those cool collected type of folks, who have all the answers. I laugh and cry, love and hurt, more than some perhaps, but I know that I at least I feel. I know what looks best on my hair and what clothes suit me. That's something anyway.
Anyway, I am babbling now. More later. It's been a sad November, but growth can be painful at times. I am ready for tomorrow.
And although this time around, I'm older and wiser, the contradiction is to say that I have just as many questions, and perhaps more, than I had back then. Perhaps that's what maturity truly is: realizing that you really don't know a damn thing. Perhaps, it's realizing that the answers aren't as important as the journey and the growth required to ask them in the first place.
I don't know. I feel the same inside, in some respects. I still am unsure of myself, lonely at times, wondering what tomorrow might bring. That's funny isn't it? Although there is a different side to me that wasn't there before. I think I am more comfortable with me. I accept that I am not one of those cool collected type of folks, who have all the answers. I laugh and cry, love and hurt, more than some perhaps, but I know that I at least I feel. I know what looks best on my hair and what clothes suit me. That's something anyway.
Anyway, I am babbling now. More later. It's been a sad November, but growth can be painful at times. I am ready for tomorrow.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Some days I dare to dream it
That one day you'll be mine,
To hold onto those sweet hands
look in those eyes divine
Some days, I only fear it
What if time weaves away
And chances pass me over
My heart then left at bay
So don't ask me to like it
If someone pulls you down
Don't think I"ll smile and move on
For others in this town.
They hurt you and abuse you
Their selfishness so plain
I want to take your burdens
But now I must refrain
Don't ask me to forgive them
I don't care what they think
You're all I breath and live on
You have become my faith
You live now deep inside me
A destiny for few
My soul cries out to tell you
How I so crave for you
The ignorance of silence
is slowly killing me
So hear my song and know it,
You're all that's left for me.
Some days I dare to dream it
Our time will somehow come
I'll have you here beside me
My heart will then be home
Some days I have to fear it
If never; this chance is ceased
And you walk away for
without you, I can't breathe
Copyright May 2007
That one day you'll be mine,
To hold onto those sweet hands
look in those eyes divine
Some days, I only fear it
What if time weaves away
And chances pass me over
My heart then left at bay
So don't ask me to like it
If someone pulls you down
Don't think I"ll smile and move on
For others in this town.
They hurt you and abuse you
Their selfishness so plain
I want to take your burdens
But now I must refrain
Don't ask me to forgive them
I don't care what they think
You're all I breath and live on
You have become my faith
You live now deep inside me
A destiny for few
My soul cries out to tell you
How I so crave for you
The ignorance of silence
is slowly killing me
So hear my song and know it,
You're all that's left for me.
Some days I dare to dream it
Our time will somehow come
I'll have you here beside me
My heart will then be home
Some days I have to fear it
If never; this chance is ceased
And you walk away for
without you, I can't breathe
Copyright May 2007
Don't you have something to say?
All this time, all this strife
Can't hurt inside, it's a short life
My head is turning, down the block
Up the street, boy next door
I see it now, never did before
CHORUS
Fairy tale and lullaby
I want to curl up and cry
Happy endings, in whose eyes, dear?
Didn't mean to lead you here
Have to face reality, time says so
Please don't blink and stare
That's how we got here
You say nothing and silence looms
We both need more, it's plain to see
I don't give what you seem to need
CHORUS
The nights grew cold without you
He walked up and filled inside
So much to share, so much to hide
He bares no blame, he has no clue
He opened my eyes to all I miss
In dreams only, hold one sweet kiss
CHORUS
You couldn't lose the gloom you share
And I need a man to help me down
From this high ledge I teeter on
Can't let go of that cat - free your tongue
Don't you have something to say
Please, please. We only have today.
COPYRIGHT MAY 2007
All this time, all this strife
Can't hurt inside, it's a short life
My head is turning, down the block
Up the street, boy next door
I see it now, never did before
CHORUS
Fairy tale and lullaby
I want to curl up and cry
Happy endings, in whose eyes, dear?
Didn't mean to lead you here
Have to face reality, time says so
Please don't blink and stare
That's how we got here
You say nothing and silence looms
We both need more, it's plain to see
I don't give what you seem to need
CHORUS
The nights grew cold without you
He walked up and filled inside
So much to share, so much to hide
He bares no blame, he has no clue
He opened my eyes to all I miss
In dreams only, hold one sweet kiss
CHORUS
You couldn't lose the gloom you share
And I need a man to help me down
From this high ledge I teeter on
Can't let go of that cat - free your tongue
Don't you have something to say
Please, please. We only have today.
COPYRIGHT MAY 2007
Monday, November 17, 2008
Again, alone, tonight
The moon an unfriendly grey
I try to make sense of the haze I live in
Since the day you said goodbye
The most familiar of strangers
The most caring of foes
I would not believe it if I had not seen
with my eyes,
with my heart
with my soul
Where did we go?
How did we get here?
Why did we go?
I sit alone at night
The moon an unfriendly sight
This fog of confusion,
The mist in my eyes
Since the day you said good bye.
The most familiar of strangers
The most caring of foes
I would not believe it if I had not seen
with my eyes,
with my heart
with my sould
Where did we go?
How did we get here?
Why did we go?
COPYRIGHT 1996
The moon an unfriendly grey
I try to make sense of the haze I live in
Since the day you said goodbye
The most familiar of strangers
The most caring of foes
I would not believe it if I had not seen
with my eyes,
with my heart
with my soul
Where did we go?
How did we get here?
Why did we go?
I sit alone at night
The moon an unfriendly sight
This fog of confusion,
The mist in my eyes
Since the day you said good bye.
The most familiar of strangers
The most caring of foes
I would not believe it if I had not seen
with my eyes,
with my heart
with my sould
Where did we go?
How did we get here?
Why did we go?
COPYRIGHT 1996
Sometimes I day dream on wistful afternoons
I dream I'm in a garden
My garden of fragrant blooms
The birds sing all around me
Fly past in brilliant hues
And sometimes in my garden,
I turn and I see you
Chorus
In the garden, it's all so clear
In the garden you're always near
You're by my side
There's nothing to hide
In the garden, in the garden
Sometimes I daydream on lonely afternoons
I'm walking in my garden
The air is bright clear blue
You're presence calm and comforting
The kindness in your face
And here in all its splendor
All humble to your grace
Sometimes I daydream, a wasteful thing some say
But dreaming of my garden
Helps me get through the day
For here in all its beauty
Our love is full and free
And always in my day dream
I have you here with me
Chorus
COPYRIGHT 1994
I dream I'm in a garden
My garden of fragrant blooms
The birds sing all around me
Fly past in brilliant hues
And sometimes in my garden,
I turn and I see you
Chorus
In the garden, it's all so clear
In the garden you're always near
You're by my side
There's nothing to hide
In the garden, in the garden
Sometimes I daydream on lonely afternoons
I'm walking in my garden
The air is bright clear blue
You're presence calm and comforting
The kindness in your face
And here in all its splendor
All humble to your grace
Sometimes I daydream, a wasteful thing some say
But dreaming of my garden
Helps me get through the day
For here in all its beauty
Our love is full and free
And always in my day dream
I have you here with me
Chorus
COPYRIGHT 1994
In my wildest dreams
I have you here with me
To hold, to have, to kiss those soft lips
It's sometimes made so clear
We ebb and flow like tide
Step up, step back, water so wide.
CHORUS:
I don't need you,
you don't need me
let's agree
Don't love you
don't love me
Come with me
Can't have you
Can't have me
You are my dream
Boomerang
You pull back too far,
so I let go- Boomerang
Off you go, the fear in me won't show.
Gone and out of sight
Makes me cold and lonely
Is this it, our time soon done?
CHORUS
I turn to go, as I forego
There you come again, my friend
I won't hurt you, so this time stay
Boomerang.
Copyright April 2007
I have you here with me
To hold, to have, to kiss those soft lips
It's sometimes made so clear
We ebb and flow like tide
Step up, step back, water so wide.
CHORUS:
I don't need you,
you don't need me
let's agree
Don't love you
don't love me
Come with me
Can't have you
Can't have me
You are my dream
Boomerang
You pull back too far,
so I let go- Boomerang
Off you go, the fear in me won't show.
Gone and out of sight
Makes me cold and lonely
Is this it, our time soon done?
CHORUS
I turn to go, as I forego
There you come again, my friend
I won't hurt you, so this time stay
Boomerang.
Copyright April 2007
That ring you wear
Who is it for?
Labeled, fat free
Are you free, baby?
I know you play
I know you're a tool
Please come and kiss this fool
In the end
Likely I'll pay
But right now and here
It's you, all I can say
I know you play
I know you're a tool
Come over here and kiss this fool
Each time I see you
I tell myself
This time look through
See what others do
I know you're a tool
Come kiss this fool
I know you play
Don't seem to care
I only want you there
Copyright 2007
Who is it for?
Labeled, fat free
Are you free, baby?
I know you play
I know you're a tool
Please come and kiss this fool
In the end
Likely I'll pay
But right now and here
It's you, all I can say
I know you play
I know you're a tool
Come over here and kiss this fool
Each time I see you
I tell myself
This time look through
See what others do
I know you're a tool
Come kiss this fool
I know you play
Don't seem to care
I only want you there
Copyright 2007
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Tonight ends the second weekend of the production I am currently involved in of Godspell. It has been a very long week. That's the plain and simple truth of it. And although I accept the inevitability of the latest events, and I remind myself of the hope that change may provide, that does not erase the knowledge of the loss inherent.
As I told a friend of mine, I just need to get my footing back and I will. I think maybe it won't happen in an instant, but with time.
As I told a friend of mine, I just need to get my footing back and I will. I think maybe it won't happen in an instant, but with time.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Friday, November 14, 2008
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
We weave in and out of each other
Together and apart strands of a basket
Full of contradictions and desires
that which makes us strangely entangled
I know I scare you some
You scare me a bit
But with you by me
It all seems to fit
You come around like a full moon,
Wax and wan, as the mood strikes
And I know that all too soon
You will walk again time
I don't know why we play so
Is that our fate
Sometimes wish we could be
Only you and me
But it's okay, for me, you know
right now I need someone to talk so
I need someone to hold me so
and I have no needs for chains.
Can you stay with me tonight
Just to feel you near
No promises are needed
Just need to hold you dear
So let's come and go like planes
As long as we know it's all rearranged
I need you today, then take some time
It's all okay with me, friend of mine
Can you stay with me tonight
Just to feel you near
No promises to be heeded
Just need to hold you dear
June 2007
Together and apart strands of a basket
Full of contradictions and desires
that which makes us strangely entangled
I know I scare you some
You scare me a bit
But with you by me
It all seems to fit
You come around like a full moon,
Wax and wan, as the mood strikes
And I know that all too soon
You will walk again time
I don't know why we play so
Is that our fate
Sometimes wish we could be
Only you and me
But it's okay, for me, you know
right now I need someone to talk so
I need someone to hold me so
and I have no needs for chains.
Can you stay with me tonight
Just to feel you near
No promises are needed
Just need to hold you dear
So let's come and go like planes
As long as we know it's all rearranged
I need you today, then take some time
It's all okay with me, friend of mine
Can you stay with me tonight
Just to feel you near
No promises to be heeded
Just need to hold you dear
June 2007
Credit where credit is due,
the change in me,
a gift from you
If you don't see what's happened here
I'm not in position to make it clear
We slowly circle,
the crowd a blur
My eyes focus only on you
Others who don't look but see
Recognize the need in me
So when you step so close
And whisper your secrets
And I breathe you in
Though we never touch I can feel your skin
Is it any wonder You have done me in
You find your way to my room at night
Dark fire in your eyes, my only light
then you draw me in, deliberately
The sweet tango begins most seductively
Why do you question when you find me lying here
All of my questions start to disappear
How to resist the power in you
I focus on you, your eyes make it clear
We dip and sway the night away
Your lips, soft pillows, gently play
Every kiss a single taste of paradise
Know this heart will not compromise
In the bright light of day,
in the way of day
All my thoughts seem to float away
If you don't see what's happened here
I am not the one to make it clear.
COPYRIGHT MARCH 2007
the change in me,
a gift from you
If you don't see what's happened here
I'm not in position to make it clear
We slowly circle,
the crowd a blur
My eyes focus only on you
Others who don't look but see
Recognize the need in me
So when you step so close
And whisper your secrets
And I breathe you in
Though we never touch I can feel your skin
Is it any wonder You have done me in
You find your way to my room at night
Dark fire in your eyes, my only light
then you draw me in, deliberately
The sweet tango begins most seductively
Why do you question when you find me lying here
All of my questions start to disappear
How to resist the power in you
I focus on you, your eyes make it clear
We dip and sway the night away
Your lips, soft pillows, gently play
Every kiss a single taste of paradise
Know this heart will not compromise
In the bright light of day,
in the way of day
All my thoughts seem to float away
If you don't see what's happened here
I am not the one to make it clear.
COPYRIGHT MARCH 2007
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
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Tuesday, November 4, 2008
LOOK AROUND by BLUES TRAVELER
You’ll get no answer from me
About what I want or what I get
Brave enough to speak, afraid to see
Confuse the issue ‘til you forget
And I tried to finally decide why
I’m in your face
And if you can’t already tell
I am unable to let things go
I’m told I do it very well
But more important you should know
That all the same, you’ve got no one to blame
But yourself, if you call that a waste
Cause it ain’t me who’s been hurting you inside
And if you’ve learned
You’d no much more than I
That you’re going to have go and find it
You’ll have to dig beneath the ground
You’ll have to unearth every stone
That kept you down on your own
And simply put it down
You’re gonna have to look around
You’ll get no answer from me
About what I get or what I want
That was enough to make him leave
He’s not the first one come and gone
And I don’t care, buyer beware of me
Cause it might get rough
If you want peace than live alone
If you want to hide then find a stage
Each a brief but perfect home
To accommodate your rage
And sometimes in the midst of all my crimes
I feel lost
Or have I lost enough
Remaining friends, reminds me as they say
It’s up to you, the things you throw away
And you’re going to have to go and find it
You’ll have to dig beneath the ground
You’ll have to unearth every ugly stone
That kept you on your own
And simply put them down
You’re gonna have to look around
You’re gonna have to look around
You’re gonna have to look around.
You’ll get no answer from me
About what I want or what I get
Brave enough to speak, afraid to see
Confuse the issue ‘til you forget
And I tried to finally decide why
I’m in your face
And if you can’t already tell
I am unable to let things go
I’m told I do it very well
But more important you should know
That all the same, you’ve got no one to blame
But yourself, if you call that a waste
Cause it ain’t me who’s been hurting you inside
And if you’ve learned
You’d no much more than I
That you’re going to have go and find it
You’ll have to dig beneath the ground
You’ll have to unearth every stone
That kept you down on your own
And simply put it down
You’re gonna have to look around
You’ll get no answer from me
About what I get or what I want
That was enough to make him leave
He’s not the first one come and gone
And I don’t care, buyer beware of me
Cause it might get rough
If you want peace than live alone
If you want to hide then find a stage
Each a brief but perfect home
To accommodate your rage
And sometimes in the midst of all my crimes
I feel lost
Or have I lost enough
Remaining friends, reminds me as they say
It’s up to you, the things you throw away
And you’re going to have to go and find it
You’ll have to dig beneath the ground
You’ll have to unearth every ugly stone
That kept you on your own
And simply put them down
You’re gonna have to look around
You’re gonna have to look around
You’re gonna have to look around.
I tried to take it all in
When you told me you let her in
What to say as you toss love around
Like a ball lying on the ground
That sense, when I recall it
My breath pulled inside out
It’s one of those moments
If I had only turned around
CHORUS
The price we have to pay
As we try to walk away
I’ll lay my sins on the table
Give all I have, all I’m able
Can’t you see past that wall
How do you do it, so stoically tall
How it’s me you hated
For the crimes you created
You won’t meet me halfway
Oh, baby, the price we pay
If I had just turned around,
If only to avoid the words and you
But it sticks here
Here in my memory like glue
But we never stopped to face it
How I wish I could replace it
So we set it to the side
Misguided in thinking time would hide
Time passed and winters to springs
Kept it hidden under skin grown thin
Lonely in the need to know
How could ours dare to grow
Wondered late at night
What if you held me tight
Deep in the night a few
But God knows, I am not going to beg
CHORUS
So time went by
The rules slowly changed
But we sowed those seed well
And they rooted in to where they fell
To wish the hurt away
But it still feels like yesterday
I guess we learned the hard way
Why do we learn it all the hard way
So time went by, some things left undone
And I’m going to miss you
For twice as long as all tomorrows
Got to learn to swallow this sorrow
And all this heartache convoluted
Can’t seem to be erased or substituted
That sense, when I recall it
My breath pulled inside out
CHORUS
COPYRIGHT NOVEMBER 2008
When you told me you let her in
What to say as you toss love around
Like a ball lying on the ground
That sense, when I recall it
My breath pulled inside out
It’s one of those moments
If I had only turned around
CHORUS
The price we have to pay
As we try to walk away
I’ll lay my sins on the table
Give all I have, all I’m able
Can’t you see past that wall
How do you do it, so stoically tall
How it’s me you hated
For the crimes you created
You won’t meet me halfway
Oh, baby, the price we pay
If I had just turned around,
If only to avoid the words and you
But it sticks here
Here in my memory like glue
But we never stopped to face it
How I wish I could replace it
So we set it to the side
Misguided in thinking time would hide
Time passed and winters to springs
Kept it hidden under skin grown thin
Lonely in the need to know
How could ours dare to grow
Wondered late at night
What if you held me tight
Deep in the night a few
But God knows, I am not going to beg
CHORUS
So time went by
The rules slowly changed
But we sowed those seed well
And they rooted in to where they fell
To wish the hurt away
But it still feels like yesterday
I guess we learned the hard way
Why do we learn it all the hard way
So time went by, some things left undone
And I’m going to miss you
For twice as long as all tomorrows
Got to learn to swallow this sorrow
And all this heartache convoluted
Can’t seem to be erased or substituted
That sense, when I recall it
My breath pulled inside out
CHORUS
COPYRIGHT NOVEMBER 2008
Monday, November 3, 2008
You and your jaded view of me
And I guess there's not much I can say
So I look around for the cost and how to pay
the price for the spirit
You and your twisted sense of me
Hypocrits when throwing stones of doubt
Of suspect acts and questionable motives rot
This soul from the nonsense
Don't remember hurting this way
Would open the door next day
Sauntering in from your nights at play
Yet here it is, condemned and convicted
Of times never known,
Times let unopened by
People putting stock in the unowned
So keep your sorted mind of me
All that I've done, and yet you don't see
Have I ever judged you the way you judge me
Go ahead, cast that stone
All that has been has been me
Times I've reached across the sky in vain
Only searching to find the road to forgive pain
But my grip remains empty
Don't remember hurting this way
Would open the door next day
Sauntering in from your nights at play
Yet here it is, condemned and convicted
Of times never known,
Times let unopened by
People putting stock in the unowned
Copyright November 2008
And I guess there's not much I can say
So I look around for the cost and how to pay
the price for the spirit
You and your twisted sense of me
Hypocrits when throwing stones of doubt
Of suspect acts and questionable motives rot
This soul from the nonsense
Don't remember hurting this way
Would open the door next day
Sauntering in from your nights at play
Yet here it is, condemned and convicted
Of times never known,
Times let unopened by
People putting stock in the unowned
So keep your sorted mind of me
All that I've done, and yet you don't see
Have I ever judged you the way you judge me
Go ahead, cast that stone
All that has been has been me
Times I've reached across the sky in vain
Only searching to find the road to forgive pain
But my grip remains empty
Don't remember hurting this way
Would open the door next day
Sauntering in from your nights at play
Yet here it is, condemned and convicted
Of times never known,
Times let unopened by
People putting stock in the unowned
Copyright November 2008
Sunday, November 2, 2008
I am a fairly straight forward person. I don't necessarily share all my inner most thoughts with everyone, but in general if someone were to ask me something, I would share what I could, as I could.
So it hurts me to learn that people assume things they have no knowledge of. They see what they want to see, and that is all. And they judge based on that and it's not right. I try to give people the benefit of the doubt, for the most part. It would be nice if that was afforded me, but apparently it is too much to ask for. At least, before people assume what they think they see, wouldn't it be easier to just ask me about it? It would be less hateful and hurtful. Why don't they just talk to me?
With weekends like these, I'd think I might rather be working.
So it hurts me to learn that people assume things they have no knowledge of. They see what they want to see, and that is all. And they judge based on that and it's not right. I try to give people the benefit of the doubt, for the most part. It would be nice if that was afforded me, but apparently it is too much to ask for. At least, before people assume what they think they see, wouldn't it be easier to just ask me about it? It would be less hateful and hurtful. Why don't they just talk to me?
With weekends like these, I'd think I might rather be working.
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