"and so it goes and so it goes and you're the only one who knows." Billy Joel

"and so it goes and so it goes and you're the only one who knows."

Hop-a-long is back in the saddle tomorrow. :o( But no complaints-I'm grateful to be employed.

"Would you throw convention to the wind to achieve happiness?" from Jane Eyre. Charlotte Bronte

1st outing in 8 days, round the 1st corner & some car is coming right at me, driving on the wrong side of the road. What the hell?

Spent the last week in one spot with my foot up. While it sounds nice, I'm afraid my ass is making a permanent indentation in the sofa.

I'm considering purchasing a netbook as opposed to a laptop. Any advice? Are they good for games, as well as email or internet access?

Billy Bob Thornton is soooooo creeeeepy!

I can actually walk on my boot today! (Well, sort of, anyway...) YEAH! Progress!

Luck o' the Irish to you. Happy St. Patty's Day!

I am very lucky to have such wonderful and supportive friends.

Just finished my LORD OF THE RINGS marathon, extended versions, of course. Tomorrow perhaps I will finish reading White Tiger.

Had my foot surgery today. Can't run for awhile :o( Have to keep it above my hip. So I'm thinkin' movie marathons and vicodin.

Well, another one over and done. Time to move on. :o)

I just received my first ticket. BS.

Just saw a robin! Spring has sprung! It wams this songbird's heart, which is good 'cuz I've been a little cranky lately. I'm not gonna lie.

He took my hand in his,
And when he did,
He could just as easily have
Taken my heart

But the quiet in my eyes
He misunderstood
Cause I never found the words to say
Words he'd stay by

So now I spend these nights
Wishing I could share the dark
Until the morning
With this man only present
In my mind, so present in my mind

Last I saw him, so close
He was so near to me
Could he feel that all I knew
He was next to me

And the shows played on
All around down time
Except this heart was racing
He was so close to me

So now I spend these nights
Wishing I could share the dark
Until the morning
With this man only present
In my mind, so present in my mind

Cause he didn't see
All that he did for me
And he misinterpreted my silence
For disinterest

But He took my hand in his,
And when he did,
He could just as easily have
Taken my heart

Just as easily taken my heart.

March 2010

Gravity
Sara Bareilles

Something always leads me back to you
It never takes too long
No matter what I say or do
I'll still feel you here
'Til the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much
Than to drown in your love
And not feel your rain.

Set me free, leave me be
I don’t wanna fall another moment into your gravity
Here I am and I stand so tall
Just the way I’m supposed to be
But you’re on to me and all over me

You loved me ‘cause I’m fragile
When I thought that I was strong
But you touch me for a little while
And all my fragile strength is gone

Set me free, leave me be
I don’t wanna fall another moment into your gravity
Here I am and I stand so tall
Just the way I’m supposed to be
But you’re on to me and all over me

I live here on my knees
As I try to make you see
That you’re everything I think I need
Here on the ground

But you’re neither friend nor foe
Though I can’t seem to let you go
The one thing that I still know
Is that you’re keeping me down
You’re keeping me down

You’re on to me, on to me and all over me
Something always brings me back to you
It never takes too long

I would like to write more tonight, but I'm not sure where to begin. A lot has been going on and there's so much to talk about that I can't talk about. That sucks, right? Someday, I hope, I can put it all out there, so that I can share some of the joys and sorrows that have made me find myself over the last few years, that have shown me what it really is all about.

Oh, my.

I heard from an old friend last week. It seems like it's old friends week. Although, some old friends, are really new friends, they just seem like old.

Anyway, I hadn't talked to him in awhile. It's so wonderful, this new technology. You can stay connected with people.

Hey. So it's been awhile since I wrote anything of significance. A blurb here, a quick comment there. It's not that I haven't had anything to say, it's more about the fact I haven't had a lot of down town to do so. And I certainly can't catch you up in one little post, so let me begin with yesterday.

What a day! It was Friday, which is grand anyway. It's the last day of the work week except I had taken the day off as I had a pre-op appointment scheduled with my doctor. So I got up and went off to the gym, to get in the elliptical machine, or the bike. Either one will do for now, but I miss my out and out run. I've been running, but with the foot issue, it's not the most comfortable of things I can do, so I've been trying to be good and stick with less pounding cardio.

Anyway, I go see him for the last visit before the surgery and he was much more relaxed than he was the prior appointment. Last time he had a resident he was mentoring. I don't think he likes doing that all that well.

Anyway, he is going to go in and get rid of the extra boney growth which is causing my discomfort. If all goes well, that's all he will do. There is a remote possibility he would do a joing replacement, but right now, he doesn't think so. Anyway, so the appointment is fine. He is good with the sinus doc, doing his thing too, while I'm under and so I left there, feeling somewhat comfident, but a little disheartened.

I mean I have been doing all of this exercise to ensure I don't have joint replacements in my arthritic future. And here I am, not 50 yet, and he's saying it's a possibility. I mean, I'm glad it's my toe and not a hip or a knee, but I just hoped it was not foreshadowing my future. Time will only tell.

Afterward, I went home and have been trying to decide, since January mind you, if indulging myself on refilling my favorite perfume was a bit to self-indulgent for someone in my financial state. But we were going out that night, and I wanted to feel like me with my wonderful scent of Happy Heart. I love that stuff!

Anyway, after updating Mom on the phone for a bit, I decided, I would spend the money and just use it for going out nights. As I was explaining to the girl at the cosmetic counter that buying that perfume for myself is more indulgent than I usually allow myself, I went back to the car.

I had a message waiting. It was from the girl at my gym. I had entered the Commit to Be Fit program. If you went to the gym at least 3 times a week you would be entered into a weekly and grand prize drawing. I had already one a weekly drawing for a Target $25 gift card. (and H had one a $15). Anyway! It seems I won the grand prize! A $1500 spa weekend getaway at a local resort.

Oh, my gosh! I was so...so....SO...SO excited. I never won anything like this before! I am still excited. Talk about an indulgent weekend, right? Although, I worked for that baby. They would post every's workouts on the board each week, I usually had 6 or 7 visits a week, one week only 5. But wow! Did that pay off or what?

So I went home and started getting ready for the night out. H and I were going out to see a show with my good friend, B. Seems like I never see him anymore and I've missed him. We were going out to Dekalb to see another good friend, K in a show. So I put on my sweater, leggings, boot and hat, reminiscent of the '60s, (and of course, put a little perfume on. Yeah! And off we went.

The show was fine. It was good to see K. He was Harold Hill. He was very good. And then we drove back. We stopped by a little bar I had only been at once and oh, my. That's a whole other story for another day. Anyway, all was good.

B drove us back to our car, which was parked at Target. We had met there to save him some driving time. Anyway, my car had been sitting there awhile and was very frosted over. So I turned it on and decided to let it warm up. I was feeling lazy and didn't want to scrape.

H noticed another car was driving around and I was like, okay, whatever. H said, is that a cop? And I said, I don't know whatever. Well, I decided I better just get out and scrape. So I open the car door and one of this big bright lights is shining on me. I was blinded. I couldn't see a darn thing. So I'm standing there with my hat on, my go-go type boots and my scraper and I hear someone yell, "GET BACK IN THE CAR, MA'AM!"

In my little voice, I said, "Oh, okay." and I got back in the car. When the cop approached she asked what we were doing and I explained and then I said, is that okay? Anyway, she let us go and all was well, but boy H and I laughed pretty hard on the way home.

So that was yesterday. Crazy, but terribly fun!

This weekend (so far). Won a weekend get away spa. Saw 2 of my favorite friends, who I miss terribly+was told by a cop to get back in the car. Wh

I love my gym!

"Thinking is the hardest work we do, which is why so few people ever do it." Henry Ford

I bought a new hat today from the clarence (as H used to say) rack. Nothing makes me feel quite as dapper as the first time I put on a new hat!