Harm says that I will grow so old people will say to me, "Susan, didn't you know George Washington?" Hope she's right!

Watching My Heart
as sung by Vance Gilbert


I can't be your guardian angel
I can barely watch over myself
You're wasting your dreams
and your wishes on me
When they should be for somebody else
They should be for someone
Who'd do more than listen

I'm holding your hand
But I'm out at arm's length
I'm keeping my distance
I'm hearing you tell me your story
You're telling your story
I'm watching my heart.

There's a street light
That shines in your window
As you sleep unaware through the night
I could sit here and watch you
For hours and hours
You're holding your pillow
You're facing the light
A fine to whisper I love you
When you can't hear me

I'm holding your hand
But I'm out at arm's length
I'm keeping my distance
I'm hearing you tell me your story
You're telling your story
I'm watching my heart.

Every lullaby that I've ever heard
Has been somebody lying
Trying to get me to sleep
And now I'm older and restless
Ain't nobody singing and
There's no guaranty I'd listen if they did

I'm kissing your face in the morning
I'm handing your towel to you through the door
I'm doing the breakfast dishes.
I'm wearing your robe.
It don't fit.
We're laughing.
I'm driving this daydream halfway to Jersey.

I'm holding your hand
But I'm out at arm's length
I'm keeping my distance
I'm hearing you tell me your story
You're telling your story
I'm watching my heart.

Eve see a man laid out
With his heart open and bleeding
For all to see

Ever see a man get up
From that hate so removed
You'd think he'd find

A second perspective
A new leash
An appreciation
For the world around

Funny how it doesn't seem to be
Doesn't work that way
How it dumbfounds

Ever see a child loving
Little left for her
In this cold world

They all up and leave
Love comes along slow
She never gives up

A second perspective
A new leash
An appreciation
For the world around

Funny how it doesn't seem to be
Doesn't work that way
How it dumbfounds

Usually so much to say
But lately doesn't seem so
Words seem weak
And do little to change
This blanket laying over me
This place so cold and strange
Lost in words
Swirled in knowledge
Never good enough
They never settle me down
Or find me at peace
In knowing
We're better left apart

In the wee small hours of the morning when the whole wide world is fast asleep...

Someone sent me instructions for a love spell. Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha ha, ha!!!

Apparently everyone's New Year's resolution was to join my gym. Not one treadmill or elliptical to be had. Hope they aren't sore tomorrow. :-P

Family videos. Nice to see the girls as babies again, but hard to see my stupidity. I knew little + always had a damn smoke. Foolish.

I'm watching videos of my first little baby. She was always so smart, and beautiful and always loved to sing. Precious.

So I've seen a couple of movies lately. Avatar.....GARBAGE!!!! That Cameron steals pictures and scenes from all of the people who know what they're doing. He has always been and will always be a wannabe to me. When he actually creates something of his own, maybe I will pay attention. Scenes in this one were reminiscent of Jurassic Park, 911, and Pocahontas. I cannot recommend this one. Well, I should say....visually, it was interesting, for about 15 minutes but then it got very destructive. Blah, blah, blah!

Okay, I saw, Sherlock Holmes today. I like Robert Downey, Jr. and Jude Law and it was okay. I got kind of tired during it, but maybe because it's New Year's Day and I was up late last night. Not sure. Would I see a sequel of it? Definitely.

I also saw It's Complicated. Oh, my gosh!!!! It was wonderful. Meryl will always be my favorite. The nuances, the looks, the innocence. She keeps it all so simple in the most complicated of characters.....what I would not give to be 10 percent as good as Meryl.

Anyway, Steve Martin was pulled back and believable. Absolutely wonderful. And Alec Baldwin, oh, my....so sexy. That man is fast becoming a favorite. He is a skilled swordsman with comedy. He does not take himself too seriously, and at the same time can play a love scene like he means it. So wonderful, a real man, full of thoughts and feelings and desires and fallibilities. I loved him in it and...

I loved this movie. And it was nice to see a movie about relationships and romance for people above the age of 40. It was nice to be reminded that people like to kiss, no matter how old they are, and that they need to kiss, no matter how old they are, and it isn't gross or bad, and can also be touching. I loved this movie.

So I listed my three resolutions on my Facebook status and one of the comments I received was, "Can you still count to 3?"

I have no idea what that means. Seriously, people say I'm cryptic, I don't know. Maybe I am, but the comment above, I just don't get it. I've read it and my resolutions multiple times. Can someone tell me what I am missing here?

Happy New Year! I resolve to: be true to my inner spirit + remain centered. 2: Run a marathon. 3: Accept things I cannot change.